Life in spite of everything 5

My life before CFS was adventurous.
I don’t need adventures, just nature and silence.
I miss Palagruža, remote and wild island.
Palagruža is great motivation for keep going.

The Lake Isle of Innisfree

W. B. Yeats, 1865 – 1939

I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made:
Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee;
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.

And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight’s all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet’s wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey,
I hear it in the deep heart’s core.

Hang on to …

Douglas Adams

ā€œHe was alone with his thoughts. They were extremely unpleasant thoughts and he would rather have had a chaperon.ā€ 
― Douglas Adams, Life, the Universe and Everything

The “I Feel Like a Child” Syndrome

Where to go, what to do?
I feel scared like a little girl…

So, emergency plan!

  1. pen, paper, plan, to do list
  2. groceries, healthy lunch, veggies, personal hygiene first!!
  3. no overthinking
  4. laundry
  5. prepare for work
    Good luck to everyone!!!

Depression

Depression, hopelessness…

I'm wearing my workaholism like a badge of honor. 

NO MORE!!!

“Excessive, prolonged stress can cause physical and emotional exhaustion and lead to illness.”

BRAIN FOG😄

Therapy:

  1. bed (clean sheets)
  2. try to sleep
  3. Good:
    I’m clean and …. i don’t have strength for more writing…
    Tomorrow i’ll be better!!!!!